To My Best Friend on Becoming a Mom, I’m Sorry I Didn’t Tell You…

To my best friend on becoming a mom…

I’m sorry I didn’t tell you there would be nights you’d cry yourself to sleep cuz all the mom guilt and sleep deprivation is just too much to handle sometimes. But yet you wake up the next morning and you try again because your kids love you no matter what you tell yourself.

I’m sorry I didn’t tell you how you may find yourself face down on the ground after losing a sleep training battle for the 3rd day in a row. I promise, they will sleep.

I’m sorry I didn’t tell you babies just don’t sleep sometimes and nothing about that has anything to do with how good of a mom you are. Nothing, you hear me?

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10 Things I Love About You: 7 Weeks Old

Ok, I’ll go ahead and say it – it’s just easier this time. I haven’t been shy expressing the struggles I had as a first time mom to Garrett. Anxiety, guilt, shame, control (or lack there of) – you name it, I felt it. But with Charlotte, it’s as if those heavy clouds that hung over my head the first year of Garrett’s life, were never even in the forecast. I’m not sure if it’s due to my hormones not being as imbalanced – I keep saying that maybe my body rejected the boy hormones, and that’s why it’s easier having a girl. Or maybe it’s just that there really is such a thing as (and I cringe as I say this, cuz I really do hate the label), a “good baby.”

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